Reminiscing

At opah's house,chitchating with Pak Long since he'll be going back to Muar tommorow.We talked about everything with mom and dad around,they've gone crazy laughing and chatting somemore.There was a topic there that glued me down and struck my heart,it's about my atok.Yes, my fav atok in the whole wide world.He was the one who believes tht I'm a girl when I was born when everbody including the doctor who delivered me said tht I'm a boy -_- *man, it's a total different and you can't even differentiate tht?* Atok insist them to name me,Afiqah Sakinah,o yeah,he was the one who stayed up all night long searching for the right name for his first granddaughter ;') And at last,he was darn right when I'm a girl after all -___-

I was raised by my grandparents,they fill me up with so much love tht it breaks my heart to see tht atok was gone forever.

When I was 5,he'll pick me up from school and he'll let me choose where to go next.We would stop for ice-cream and as usual,we would play at the playground,I would insist him to push me harder on the swing so I can touch the sky.He would give me tht warm smile as if he believes in me and for who I can be someday ;')

Atok,I'll make you proud and no one can replace you and I'll love you forever and always.

and apart from all this,I want you to know,whenever I miss you,I'll go to the playground and get into tht same old swing we use to hv fun with but only this time,there's nobody to catch me when I fall,nobody....

I wish I'm old enough to understand when you say 'I love you' every morning before I go to school so that I can say 'I love you more, grandpa' ;)